Importance of
the triple examen of conscience:
looking ahead,
particular, of the day past
The young
student took note of the fact that dangers for the soul are to be found at any
moment for someone living where there are lots of people, and with the help of
his Confessor, Father Possevino, and his favourite liitle book, The Spiritual
Struggle, he fashioned a programme for life or Spiritual Plan for knowing
how best to behave each day and for any occasion. He
wrote it down and read it frequently. This
is what it says:
1. Each
morning make an examen which looks forward through the day:
it consists in
working out what tasks, what meetings, what conversations and special occasions
are likely to present themselves during the day and planning how to conduct
oneself during them.
2. Around
Then
we find an interesting detail:
for
19 years his particular examen was based on his 'evil genius', that strong
defect which was his inclination to anger.
When
he was already a Bishop and so wonderfully gentle and good, someone once asked
him what he had done to achieve
such a high degree of self-control, and he answered:
"For19
years, daya after day I questioned myself in detail about my resolution not to
treat anybody harshly"..
This
Particular Examen was extremely useful for Saint Ignatius Loyola, with excellent
success.
It
is a kind of echo of the teaching of à Kempis:
"You
will achieve holiness if you seriously fight against one of your defects each
year".
3. Let
no day pass without meditation.
For half an
hour I think about the good things God has granted to me, about the greatness
and goodness of Our Lord, about the truths which the Bible teaches or about the
teachings and example of the saints. And
at the end of the meditation I choose some thought to ponder and recall during
the day, and make a short resolution about how I will behave over the next 12
hours..
4. Pray the Holy
Rosay each day.
I will not
forget to say the Rosary any day of my life.
This
was a promise he made to the Blessed Virgin at a time of great anxiety and he
carried it out precisely as promised for the rest of his life.
But
later on he would tell his disciples never to make promises for a lifetime
because it could cause them anxiety.
Make
resolutions yes, but promises no.
5. In my dealings
with others I will be gentle and moderate. I
will take pains to speak with others about things that interest them rather than
speaking about myself. I
already know what I will say. But
what they say to me might help me to grow spiritually. While I am
talking I will learn nothing; if I listen I can hope to learn a lot.
6º. During the day
I will think of God's presence. "your
eyes see me, your ears hear me.
If
I go to the ends of the earth you will be there, my God.
If
I hide myself in the depths, your light will shine on me as if it were day",
(Psalm
138).
"The Lord will pay each one according to his deeds.
Each
will need to present himself before God's throne to give an account of what he
has done, the good things and the bad things" (
7. Each
evening, before retiring to bed, I will make the Examen based on the day
past: I
will recall if I began the day by recommending myself to God.
And if I
remembered God often during the day's concerns in order to offer him my actions,
thoughts, words and sufferings. If
everything I did today was for the love of the good God. If I
treated people well; if I
sought, in my work and words to please my own self-love and pride, instead of
God, and instead of doing good to my neighbour; if I
knew how to make some small sacrifice; if I
made some effort to be fervent in my speech. And
I will ask pardon of the Lord for the offences that I have given him during this
day; I will resolve to become better form that moment onwards; and I will
beseech heaven to give me the strength to always be faithful to God; and praying
the three Hail Marys, I will peacefully drift off to sleep.
Padova,
1589
